hey, hmm.. i dont noe how to do d pembukaan of this post, so..hmm, I HAVE MANY MANY MANY FLAWS IN ME YG MAYB SOME OF U R TOO BLIND TO SEE OR NOTICE. sb x ckp or mention, mayb .. it looks like i ni seorang yg bukan main lg. n bdw, i turn the flaws down by looking on a brighter and greener side. sb tu i x banyak bising pasal d kekurangans i have. THAT IS MY REASON. i was raised up taught doing that. so then, il always be thankful to god n sedar diri. tapi since u x puas hati dengan sikap i yang i x suka merungut pasal kekurangan i, so now.. im sharing my flaws with the public.
when i dont do good grades for my studies - i think of those yang sampai kena buang uni. so i bersyukur.
when i give up my life n just nak berhenti everyting especialy blja - i pk, org lain sampai berhutang/ work night shifts/ kerja sambil blaja.. so then will be educated n respected person. so i get up ( xd la bgn betui ) n change my thought n again be thankful.
wen i rasa muka i ni buruk - i pk of those yg x cukup sifat. i bersyukur, nasib baik muka buruk, kalau cacat?
wen i pk myvi byk pakai petrol, n nak bigger n lg sempoi car - i pk, hey, org lain.. bejalan kaki tgh panas p mana2, besyukur sket. n sedar diri - hang tu x mmpu, mak bapak dh bg kreta syukur sket apa yg ada.
wen im so fedup with my realtionship - i pk, mayb i did sumthing to others thats y my rltnship pun terumbang ambing.
bila i nak beg, i x dpt - i pk, org lain x betukar pon beg depa. bersyukur sama noh
bila i nak shoes i x dpt - org lain x pakai kasut pon mintak sedekah
bila i nak clothes i x dpt - i pk, org lain xd baju pon nak tukar tiap2 hari.
bila i bising makanan x sdp - org lain xd makanan pon nak makan, starve to death pon ada. so im back to being thankful
wenever ada gadget baru n i nak n x dpt - i pk, org lain xda pun. + d money kalau sedekah, berkat lagi dari asyik bli bru bli bru ja. SEBAB MATA ORANG KATA KITA RIAK, BUKAN DEPA NAK PK KITA MAMPU DSBBKAN REZEKI TUHAN BAGI.
bila i asyik sakit dada n cant breathe - i pk, alhamdulilah.. bru skit sakit i ni, org lain sampai kena admit hosp, yg meninggal pon ada. so im given chance to do better in life.
my deaf-ness. kekadang x dgr, kkdg dengar, sll sll buat buat x dgr - lg baik x dgr dr dgr, sb mata yg melihat.. baca benda yg skt hati pon rasa mcm better off dying.
when i xd duit - i pk people who r in poverty.
bila i nak attention fr bf - i pk, some people, parents pon xd.
bila i pk, y m so thin n senang rs sejuk - i pk, org lain are frozen.
when i think of i just want to die - they r people who wud just do anything to live.
when i xtau guna someting - i pk ada org buta huruf. so xpala . small matter.
wen i dont have much frens - i have a lot. i just dont realy melepak. i dont. id rather stay home than loaf around.
ni kekurangan yg i can think of right now. i dont noe if its kekurangan for U, but it is for me. n its a big deal. dif people have dif perception. all in all, i thankful for everything.. kurang atau lebih, ni semua rezeki tuhan n nikmat dunia yg i dapat. its a test for me. i sedar benda ni sementara n sll pk pasal when all these are going to be taken away from me. I TAKOT SGT. (mintak simpang malaikat 44, mintak ampun semua dosa, jgn lah tarik nikmat ni semua. mira berayukur sangat).so u jgnla ingat i ni pk i perfect. no. u dont noe, if i cry myself to sleep. u dont noe if im suffering heartache every now n then n frequently. mayb i talk about doing good ja, n yes.. i am no angel. i buat benda x elok jugak. but i x kacau hidup org. i do them to myself. i cause damage to myself. I NOE AND I AM AWARE THAT I X BUAT ORANG. I DONT TRASH PEOPLE. I DONT. I MENGUMPAT, YES. BUT I TAK TRASH PEOPLE PUBLICLY OR TALK ABOUT THE GODDES IN ME MATERIALY N FIZIKALY. NO. I DONT. mayb u think i boast, i x. i just share with those yg im close with sb ssh nak contact. N PS: HOW DO I KACAU ORG, WHEN I KAWAN PUN XDAK?
n i rasa - kat blog ni, org baca .. so, its better off sharing good things than bad ones. sbb sapa nak tau benda yg x elok jadi kat u? org nak hapy hapy. kalau sakit mata n hati baca benda hapy. stop reading n care. its the best alternative.
few friends are much better than having a lot. trust me, i learnt the hard way. the more 'friends' you have, the more drama they bring. doesnt matter lah what ppl nak ckp, as long as you tak kacau org. kalau sakit hati, no need to read your blog. its your blog. suka hati la nak tulis apa pun. dok rumah lagi bagus dari merayau tak tentu hala, bkn dapat apa pun. sedih kan setengah org so pathetic nak kata mcm mcm when we tak invite them into our lives pun, or in this case, into our blogs, haihhh.
ReplyDeletelol. i agree sbb when we talk bout gud things people will thinks kita berlagak itu berlagak ini. bila tulis psl benda sedih it's just too pathetic to even write bout it. or sumtime org nnt kata nk minta simpati la pa la. jln paling sng, MAMPOS p la kat org len kan. fikirkan sg psl org len, x tentu dey all tu fikir psl kita. so jaga diri sendri sudey. :)
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